Today I felt really heavy. Why does depression cause you to have that really gross heavy feeling in you chest/stomach? I don’t appreciate it.
I wish I had friends to do things with, there are so many things that I might actually enjoy but it is too awkward to do them alone. I keep thinking that if i go back to uni then the situation will change as I will have more people to talk to. However the reality is is that hardly anyone invites me to do anything, and if someone does it is usually a guy who wants to have sex with me… which just makes the situation too awkward. I am also to afraid to try invite people to do things due to fear of rejection.
Nothing seems to be working for me and I am so tired, I don’t want to try anymore. Can I just skip to the part when I’m happy?