So it is like 4am and I’m awake because I watched a horror movie. It didn’t finish till like 3am and my friend tried to make me watch another one and I was just like….uhmmm I want to sleep.
My friend that I want to be just friends with keeps trying to invite me on date situations without calling it a date. I feel bad for saying no, but I also don’t want to deal with the whole “you lead me on” shit. I have actually told him that I only want to be friends too so this makes me extra annoyed.
I was supposed to go to the doctor today but then my normal doctor was sick and as I am already too anxious around doctors I decided that wasn’t a good plan. I now am going another day.
I really need to find something fun to do…..
I am way to scared of doctors, I need to sort this fear out as I seem to go there all the time. I just always think they will be mad at me.
I don’t know why I try when everything seems so hopeless?
I have no motivation to do anything! I need to at least stop having McDonald’s every night.
I feel kinda bad for being really socially awkward and not interacting with anyone lately. But it’s ok because lets be honest if they really cared the would contact me.
Why do people always think their feelings are more important than mine? Maybe it’s because all my feelings are so numbed that other people are unable to see their relevance. I hate how I always end up feeling as if my feelings are invalid.