I have to go to the doctor tomorrow, why do they cost money? The doctor always tries to be really optimistic about things, I’m just like, that’s cute.
My assignment deleted itself today… I rewrote it so it’s fine. Hasn’t been the best day.
I didn’t write anything yesterday because I feel asleep at some ridiculously early time. Anyway, they thing that has been on my mind today and part of yesterday is people not inviting me to do things with them. Yesterday I got invited… Well not really I was asked to sober drive people. So cool that I wasn’t invited to properly attend and participate. The obviously don’t want to actually hang out with me, just keen to use me. I haven’t talked to anyone about this, however I know if I told a counselor they would just tell me that I should initiate it and invite people. Fuck no, don’t want to deal with that rejection!
I was so tired today.
Whenever I try to control one thing something else gets out of control
I’m sick, hopefully this doesn’t last too long.
I don’t know what is wrong with me? I hate counselling, saying things out loud makes them seem so real.