Yesterday I ended up really upset because someone stopped me from talking and disregarded what I said. Things like this are so frustrating when you hardly talk anyway. Like I finally talked and I was told to stop. Why bother?
Then I had to find an excuse for being upset because it really wasn’t the time to be talking about feelings. I thought I would get an apology later …. But I didn’t. I’m so over other people!
I think my anxiety is getting better
I have a job interview tomorrow, it’s for a job next year. It feels weird trying to commit to things that are next year.
Do you ever get scared you are going hypomanic or manic? I don’t have bipolar, I think it would have shown up by now. But I feel better than normal and I keep thinking I have these great ideas, I research things because I think I could find a breakthrough. . . I kinda know it’s not the case at the same time though. I’m particularly just writing this because I think it should be documented for future reference maybe.. It’s only 12:19am nothing too rediculous at least.
When I don’t want to do something I never know if I want to never get to it or get it over with. I hate that there are so many things in life that just aren’t optional. I want time to pause, I just need it to stop!
I REALY need to do my washing. Washing machine is so far away!
Time goes so fast, well it feels like it anyway. It tricks you, you think you have so much time and then it’s gone.