So I asked for a ride to training from multiple people. I eventually managed to find one, however, it was way too much effort. I posted on a facebook group, to reach multiple people and no one replied. I thought it would be because they weren’t going. But then they were there. I don’t even know what to think about that?
It just makes you feel so invisible.
I had counselling today, I really need to be able to talk about my emotions. I need to actually figure them out first though… Any suggestions on how to get in touch with your emotions?
People make things seem so easy, they tell you to do things. Trust me I would if it was that simple.
Just because I don’t tell you,
Doesn’t mean I don’t have an opinion,
Doesn’t meant I’m not trying,
And doesn’t mean I don’t care.
Just because I’m depressed,
Doesn’t mean I’m not resilient,
Doesn’t mean there was a cause,
And doesn’t mean I’m a downer.
Just because I’m not better,
Doesn’t mean I’m not trying,
Doesn’t mean I’m abnormal,
And doesn’t mean you should stop trying.
Just because you think you know me,
doesn’t mean you do.
My motivation to do thing has never been this low before
Today I read that writing with your non-dominant hand can open a dialogue with you’re inner child. I thought it sounded kinda bullshit, but also kinda fun. Not that I would ever know if it works as my inner child would not like speaking to people as inner child is shy.
I was such a shy child, my parents forced me to take drama classes to try fix it… Didn’t work that well, they tried to make me walk around and talk to my self. I’m not that kinda crazy!
I keep feeling really guilty at the moment.