Sometimes I get so sad I can’t breathe, I just feel so shit about myself, and so lost. I don’t understand what it is about me that people don’t like. I never make a good first impression. It’s so strange how for some people everything just works out first time. Why is that? They don’t deserve it more than other people, although sometimes they think they do. That makes it even worse, like when people are born rich and think they somehow earned it.
It seems like every time I pick myself up, I just get smashed back down further. And every time it happens is worse than the last. I start to feel like all hope is false hope.