My back up plan for life is to become a stand up comedian, I’ll just talk about the mental health system…because it’s already a joke.
But seriously, it’s a system that should be hard to get out of, yet is a struggle to stay in. It is rare to find someone that even vaguely understands. Like just yesterday, I was talking to a psychiatric nurse, you know someone who’s job it is to understand. They couldn’t comprehend that I couldn’t see a future, made me feel like I was so abnormal. This same nurse just asked me, “why I would self harm, what if somebody knew?” Oh yes, so helpful, it has never crossed my mind that people could judge me. So insightful! I won’t do it now.
I had to encourage my doctors to try more medication, they gave up before I did, way to make me feel hopeless guys. And then when they decide to try something new, they want to wait a few weeks first. No that is torture when you have suicidal thoughts, I’ve been waiting three months lets go now!