So many places have “criteria” to be accessed. But what is functionally impaired anyway? Why do I get left out because I am willing to just have a panic attack whereas others would just completely avoid the situation. Why am I considered ok because I can interact with people while I’m on the brink of tears? When I just have to hope my words will come out ok.
This is starting to become regular at work, over the last week. I don’t have any sick leave so I have to go. I can’t afford to not have a job, so I have to have one, so I show up, I function. There is no other option. Having a job means I can’t get funding for counselling, so I don’t have one. My meds are too complex that GPs don’t like to touch them, so I should really have a psychiatrist, but I can’t afford one.
I get told I should talk to x and just say “I’m feeling anxious what should I do?” But I’m too anxious to do that. People say it’s normal to be sort of anxious in knew environments, I’m fine. But how anxious is normal anxious?