27/05/2018

The mental health people seem to be gradually doing things, which is good. They appear to need to work on their efficiency, however, they are being helpful so I shouldn’t complain too much. I am seeing them again in two days, I really need to work on my communication. I can communicate well, but I’m not very consistent there is a large range of my communication abilities that seem to be dependent on the day. Some days I don’t really seem to be present in the room, and hence I am not very good at communicating to the other person in that room.

I feel really bored at the moment, my life is just, sleep, food, exercise, some TV, and very occasionally I may socialise. I am also Irritable, I’m not 100% sure if that’s a symptom or if I am just surrounded by annoying people. My sleeping pattern is not how I like it, it is probably how most people want it. I go to bed early and wake up early, but I don’t like doing that, especially when I am not working. I do want to work, but my previous experience does put me off a tad. Plus I feel so tired all the time…

07/05/18

People like to focus on themselves, this can be good and bad. It always seems that when you think people won’t notice, they deviate away from their self-absorbed nature. Other times you wait for people to notice, but they never do.

Mental health people are being a tad shit at the moment, mostly as they say they are going to do stuff and it doesn’t seem to be happening. Everything is just so delayed, and there is no attempt to minimize wait times. I’m fine with waiting, I just don’t like the time it takes for the person to remember to refer me added to the wait time.

I’m currently in a place where I can’t tell if I am getting better or worse, my insight isn’t great at present. My sleep is getting worse which is annoying. I have kind of established a routine. I am having a two-week break between counseling appointments which I am not sure is a good idea. I am debating whether to go to the GP as I am not seeing the psychiatrist for another 5 weeks and saw him last about 5 weeks ago. I was supposed to see him after 6 weeks, but wait times….  If I am to go to the GP I need to construct my thoughts so that I don’t just sit there like, “Hi, I thought I should see a Dr”.

I could as to see the occupational therapist, I don’t really have much to say to her, but at least it’s free.