30/06/16

Sometimes it just feels like everything is against me. I am so tired, I’m running on empty. I just need to sleep! 

29/06/16

I don’t know what I’m feeling, I want to just give up. Why do people have to bring me down. Even when they try to be nice it still makes me sad. 

28/06/16

How do people always notice how shy I am. I try really hard to hide it but they always bring it up. Even with benzos…. What do normal people do?

People should also stop bringing it up because it stresses me out.

27/06/16

So far nothing has gone wrong, fingers crossed that nothing does go wrong. This could be the biggest upset ever. 

26/06/16

My GP booked me an appointment with the shrink.. Not sure what to think about this? I haven’t even been recently, what have these medical professionals been saying behind my back to make this decision. I would like to be more involved in this chat. 

25/06/16

People are so closed minded. 

24/06/16

Today was so good, people weren’t dicks to me for being shy.

23/06/16

I’m going ok so far, I just have to hope tomorrow doesn’t shit itself… 

22/06/16

I have really bad joint pains at the moment.. Has anyone else experienced this with depression? Should ask a dr but I don’t think it’s serious..

I’m not sick..

So often people I don’t know very well think I am sick, like physically ill,like I have the flu or something. To be honest I’m not exactly sure what they are thinking but it’s awkward. I have to come up with some reason I look sick but don’t need to go home ie. I have a headache… But the reality is I’m just depressed. It would be better if society was more acepting of it and I could just explain but that is not the case. Oh well sometimes I get faster dr appointments because nurses think I’m way more sick than I am. 

Every cloud has a silver lining I guess..