I haven’t written anything in a while, I have made a whole heap of major decisions very suddenly. I also have not informed a lot of people about these decisions. But it’s my life so it’s not really for them to know. There are still a lot of decisions still to make. But overall I have decided to take my time over these decisions. Figure out what I really want. not just guess what I will want in the future.
There is always so much pressure to rush, people seem to not be able to think more than a month in advance. Well, they are either doing that or thinking 5 years into the future. There is no middle ground. Sometimes if you slow down you will end up being further ahead in the long run. But others don’t seem to be able to comprehend this concept.
I also want to take time to think about what I want from other people. Because you need to ask for what you want for anything to happen. Because surprisingly other people don’t have their lives together enough to be useful on their own. People are so self-focused, most people aren’t capable of true empathy. Rather this fake bullshit which if you talk to them long enough you realise they have no idea. It’s all just fake emotions.
I think this lack of empathy is a result of societies views on expressing emotion. we are all expected to not display or talk about any unpleasant emotions. So all people know to do is the fake smile. If you dare to express unpleasant emotion to others, you will find you get the minimum response that is polite. They won’t ignore it, that would be rude. They just change the topic as fast as possible or try to exit the conversation as fast as possible.
In conclusion, I really need to find a decent therapist as I have a lot of people to bitch about. It’s also a bonus if you bitch about people in a confidential environment.